Meditations on Yoga



ONLY THE UNREAL DISSOLVES

the technique
FEEL: MY THOUGHT, I-NESS, INTERNAL ORGANS – ME.
BEFORE DESIRE AND BEFORE KNOWING,
HOW CAN I SAY I AM?
CONSIDER. DISSOLVE IN THE BEAUTY.
Once a visitor asked many people in a small town about the mayor: ‘What type of man is your
mayor?’
Said the priest, ‘He is no good.’
Said the filling-station attendant, ‘He is a bum.’
And said the barber, ‘I never in my life voted for that rascal.’
Then the visitor met the mayor, a much maligned man, and the visitor asked, ‘What pay are you
getting for your job?’
Said the mayor, ‘My goodness, I am not getting any pay for it. I have accepted this job just for the
honor of it!’
This is the situation of the ego – only YOU think about your ego, no one else. Only you think that your
ego is enthroned; for everyone else it is not so. No one agrees with your ego except you; everyone
else is against it. But you go on living in a dream, in a delusion. You create your own image. You
feel that image, you protect that image, and you think the whole world exists for it. This is a delirium,a madness. This is not reality.
The world is not existing for you. No one is concerned with your ego; no one at all. Whether you are
or you are not, it makes no difference. You are just a wave. The wave comes and goes; the ocean
is not worried about it. But you think yourself very important.
Those who want to dissolve the ego have first to recognize this fact. And unless you can put
aside your egoistic structure, you will not be able to see the reality, because whatsoever you see,
whatsoever you perceive, your ego distorts it. It tries to manipulate everything for itself. And nothing
is for it, because reality cannot help anything which is false. Remember that.
Reality cannot support anything which is not, and your ego is the most impossible thing, the greatest
falsity. It is not there; it is your creation, your imaginative creation. The reality cannot help it. The
reality is always shattering it, always destroying it. Whenever your ego comes in contact with reality,
the reality proves shocking. Just to defend yourself against these shocks which are always coming,
continuously coming to destroy your ego, by and by you avoid seeing reality.
Rather than lose your ego, you try to avoid seeing the reality. And then around your ego you create
a false world which you think is the reality. Then you live in your own world. You are not in contact
with the real world, you cannot be, because you are afraid. You are living in a glasshouse of the ego.
The fear is there: whenever the reality comes in contact, your ego may be destroyed, so it is better
not to come in contact with the reality. We go on escaping from reality just to protect, to defend, this impossible ego.